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Oh Man, Four Days October 27, 2008

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So this might be the most stressful four days of my life. I have several projects to complete, the entire books of Job and Proverbs to read, as well as a 300 page book to read. All this due by at least Thursday night. This is going to be sweet… I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining (even though I am whimpering as I write this). I guess I more or less want the viewing public to know that the reason this blog has not been updated is because of this incredible stress I have been having. But hey, if God sees fit to pull me through then it’ll be awesome, and if not it’ll be awesome regardless.

Anyway at the end of these four days I’ll be heading for the National Youth Workers Convention out in Pittsburgh. I. Am. Stoked. It’ll be a weekend of relaxation and getting fed as a youth worker. I’m looking forward to hanging out with my friends in the ministry and even just getting alone time with God. I’ll be explaining more later, but for now I got work to do. LET”S DO THIS!!!

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What you see is what you get October 17, 2008

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Do you know somebody that has this characteristic of “what you see is what you get?” A person that literally has no strings attached to their personality. Somebody with no falsehood, that they are who are they are simply because they can and chose to be. It’s like whatever happened in their past never really shaped them or hurt them, it’s like there’s nothing that could possibly bring them down, like an invisible cloak shields them from the wrong and pain of the world, simply making them the only true optimistic. It’s that person with so much humility that can talk about what’s wrong with themself, talk to you about what’s going on in your life, and never talk about anybody else for they know it is wrong to do so. A humbleness that never boasts, or mocks, or says anything coarse, its just always the right thing to say because it is the right thing to say. I do have the privilege of knowing someone like that.

One of my friends is coming home this weekend and I hope he’ll take a stop by at PBU to sit and chat for a while. This guys is truly a man after God’s own heart. It’s weird to be with someone like that, it’s not that I am jealous or angry of this persona of his, it’s more comforting. Comforting to know that a Christain can grow so vastly and so confident in such a short period of time. I hope and pray that God will spark some wild conversations and I hope that others can meet him as well.

Do you know someone that is such an encouragment to you? Someone who God established to be a wise and prudent man or woman that you can always look up to?

The results of Fall Break October 15, 2008

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Well, Fall Break has ended. I’m here starting up my classes again thinking, “Where has the time gone?” Already I’m falling into the trap of skipping out on work, taking those extra naps, and chowing down on cookies. Some turn around right? I thought I was going to get some work, but that didn’t happen. And I thought I could focus more on my prayer time, but that didn’t happen. Instead I fell into a deep, deep, deep pit of sin.

I thought earlier last week that I could implement some things to kind of do a pick me up or rather, focus on the upward. Didn’t do that. I guess one thing I did was I did begin exercising, I’m thinking this will help me with my energy and to maintain a healthy lifestyle. However, I ate like a pig. In all honesty, I am dramatizing these effects, but there is still some truth to them.There are simply things that I could have done to change, but I didn’t do them. What’s going on here?

How come I didn’t do things to change? I knew what they were and how to do it, but why didn’t I allow it? Since when did I become so pessimistic?

It’s a paradox really. I mean, I believe and am convinced with all my heart that the Holy Spirit is within me, that God has saved me because of His grace and for His glory. But there’s no change now, what happened to growth? And I’m not blaming God at all, I blame myself. I hear the Word but I do not listen. I read the Word but I do not understand it. I know what it says, but I just don’t apply it. I’ve put God in chains within my heart. A little poetic if you will, but still, you get the idea.

So what have I done wrong? Am I lazy? Are we lazy if you suffer from the same problem? What can I do?

One week away October 6, 2008

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Well I’m one week away from my fall break. That’s two days without my brain fuzzing out, two days without the unnecessary electric work that has me drawing blanks everytime I take a quiz. It’s been a wild ride thus far. God has provided me with new info, some reiterated information, and some things I already knew but it’s always good to see where you are at. A part of me almost feels disappointed though. I can’t really tell if I am actually learning as much information as I had in my previous year. Maybe I’m just used to the motions of college but at the same time maybe I am not appyling myself as diligently as I used to. I mean my grades are pretty good, yet I feel like I’m not taking extra steps to teach myself, i.e. books I read myself and keeping up on God’s Word in my life. Perhaps its my prayer life. I know that every time I finish my school work all I really want to do is go to bed. I feel like I’m not using my time for the things above, instead I’m focusing down here. I think I’m going to need to take some to process this, and it be great if you could help me out. What are specific things we can do to change out attitude? Our energy? And what can we do to focus on the heavenly?

Teaching October 1, 2008

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Ever thought about how much what we do, what we say, and how we act affects those that watch us? In one sense we are constantly teaching those around us. We teach them about ourselves, we teach them about others, we teach them about our worldview, and sometimes we teach them how they should act. I think we often forget how much our own lives affect others. We forget that there are people who actually look to us for acceptance, or for advice, or even for a way of living.

Teaching is done everyday. It is done when we speak, when we react, and sometimes when we think. Every action we do will teach someone. So what are the implications of this? Do we really ever think about how much we affect others? How are we to go about our daily lives in a manner that reflects Biblical principles? Deuteronomy 6:6-7 tells us that, “These commandments which I am commanding you, you shall keep on your heart, you shall teach them diligently to our children. You shall talk of them when you sit in your house and when you walk by the way and when you lie down and when you rise up.” If we live a life of consitency, where God’s commandments are reflected in our everyday life, we can teach those whom we love what it means to love God. To me this is one of the most important aspects of Godly living, being able to see God reflected in us. But how can we teach this?

We can teach this in how we speak, for instance we can offer encouragment instead of a sarcastic comment. We can choose to have other people have the last slice of pizza instead of ourselves. We can calm ourselves down when we drive when we drift to road rage. What are ways you can teach people?